Courtney Leigh Engle
(1990 - 2009)

Profile:
Courtney Leigh Engle

Birth:
May 24, 1990

Passing:
PA, United States of America
February 3, 2009

Interests:
Family, Friends, Animals especially her beloved Ty and Libby, Field Hockey, Camping, Quadding, and Just having fun
Guest Book
Hey lovebug,, how are you.. Jan 29th is coming up..</3 ugh these next 2 weeks is gonna be hard.. it still feel so unreal.. 3 years, feels like just yesterday.. you'll forver be in mine and everyone's heart.. your never forgotten.. Sunni's be asking to go visit you.. everytime we talk about you she cried.. she was so young but she knows how much you mean too me. and how much we love you.. I asked Sunni the other day if she remember's when she told me she saw you as we were just laying in her bed.. she started gigling and laughing, it was so weird I asked her what she was laughing about.. She said w no hestiation, " YOU don't see courtney.... SHe's making funny faces and sticking her tongue out at me.. " as she was doing the same back.. Idk or think she recalls she was like 3 something like that. I lost it but smiled at the same time.. Please look after your mom this week .. It's a very hard time for alot and especially me.. I know your mom needs it the most.. along ith your family..
Love n miss you so much. keep coming to visit me..<3 miss you boo
<3 love always her friend forveer..!! Sydnei
Sydnei Simon (sister/ close friend)
January 26th, 2012
Princess I love you and miss you every minute of every day...I know you know that..I have to believe it...you probably know the moments I break down each day. Its really hard to believe its our 3rd Xmas without you! I can still see you so clearly. I hear your laughter. I see you in my dreams....I love you honey and I cant tell you enough how much I miss you!
michelle engle (mom)
December 30th, 2011
Courtney, My love it's Christmas and it's still seem so unreal I dream about you all the time like your with us. I even dreamt that it was all a dream, it felt so real you made me feel so stupid like God didn't take you.. I miss and think about you everyday.. You should know I talk to you every night... You don't understand how much you are truly missed..<3 Words can't describe I have our junior year prom pic in my car with my Guardian Angel next too it, bc you are my Guardian Angel.. Bell passsed again I hope your taking care of her. I told sunni you needed her more than we did and she's in a Good place..<3 I told her how much you love dogs... I hope you enjoy Christmas with everyone up there in Heaven... If there was a way to Heaven, I'd come right up there and take your place.. I going through alot court, I don't know how much more I can take please please help me and let me be strong enough to get through it please.. And keep watching over your Mom and family bc they really need you..<3 I love you with all my heart and soul.. I cry just thinking about all our Childhood Memories we have lots, and they'll never be forgotten.. I know i haven't wrote on her in a long time and i'm sorry but as we bboth know we talk everynight... I just miss you so much you were my only one and true friend yes we had our fights but no matter what in the end, we always had each other's back...<3 We could go weeks sometime a month without talking and the second we saw each other it was like we saw each other like just yesterday..<3 I miss you Girl so much.. And you'll forever be in my heart..<3 The tattoo your mommy got for you is beautiful, just like everyone else that got one for you.. Mine still needs to be finished...
I Ltruly Love and miss you.. I watch the video Aunt elaine Made for you for your Benefit everytime I ball me eyes out and the song she has on there never knew it before, but when i hear it in a store, on the radio, any where i know your with me.. You saved me a couple times and I believe it was you.. I love you and you'll never be forgotten I love.. <3 mmwwaaahhh Couriana is getting so big I know your so proud... She doesn't really know me and it breaks my heart bc I know a piece of you is with her.. She has beautiful curly hair just like your not thick but she's a Beautiful, smart young lady..<3 Merry Christmas Court... <3 I Love you
Sydnei Simon (close friend)
December 26th, 2011
Court just wanted to let you know I went to the District Championship game yesterday with Syd... Very emotional... we talked about all the good times we had...just wanted to let you know your always in our hearts and forever on our minds... Keep an eye out over Syd .. She loves you so much as do we all!
Lisa Lewis (Friend)
November 3rd, 2011
hey princess...Haven't written in a while but always thinking about you..More now then ever...johnnie came to join you and I know you will both look out for each other and all of us! Life is so hard without out you both..Know that you are both truly loved and missed and will never be forgotten! I love you,
Aunt Stacey
stacey Crisswell (Aunt)
October 24th, 2011
Heeyy My love..<3 i'm always thinking about you..!! i was telling my mom stories from when you guys lived in this house.. i was thinking we were 10 - 11,, thats young.. We're 21 Court!!!! its like so unreal.. i qwish you we here.. i know you always are but i just wish i could hear your voice, your the funny "ily" with the silly face... i was going thru some old stuff the other night i was laughing, crying.. oh and the benfit went awesome, i know you were there watching.. The video Aunt Elaine made was beenfit, i know you Love it.. it's hard watching it, but i LOVE it at the same time I cry, I luagh.. lmao i'ma dorkk..How's kyle, you's celebrate your 21st birthday.. i'm sure you had a blast.. well i'll keep praying, i know you hear me..<33 not a day goes by that I don't miss youu... keep keeping your mom strong..!!<3 and watching over everyone.. especially your family && friends.. lovveee you babygirl.. every time i come ojn here, i cryy.. :'(
Sydnei Simon (Sister/Close friend)
September 7th, 2011
It's no secret princess that I think about you every day, or that there's not a minute that goes by that I don't miss you, but right now is one of those moments that I just wonder how I go on without you. It's your birthday in about 45 minutes...You and your sister will be 21. Its so hard trying celebrate this day knowing I can never celebrate it with you again. I can't help but wonder what you would be doing right now or where you would be in your life. I miss not being able to watch you continue to grow into the beautiful young women you were becoming. There are days when I just don't know how I get out of bed...I love you every moment of every day...And I miss you more than I could ever explain. I love you princess and I wish...I just wish I could go back in time and have you here with me and the rest of us
'Michelle Engle (Mom)
May 23rd, 2011
Courtney..its been a while since i been on here, but you know not a day goes by that i don't think or miss you. i hope your enjoying heaven with eveyrone i miss all yu guys so much. please help shannell... i think about you everyday court.. it feels like yesterday the pain idt will ever go away.. but remember you'll NEVER be forgotten thats for sure.. you'll forever be in our hearts and everyone else up there.. i love n miss yu..</3 i could really use you right bout now.. i hate crying i hate feeling like this.. you always put me in a good moood. i love you court.. always n forever.. your benefit is coming up i can't wait.. it's gonna be hard.. but its for you so we all gotta keep our head up.. please keep making your mommy strong.. she's a wonderful woman court, you always knew that.. or when yuy would come to school crying to me bc you and your parents got into a fight i know how much you hate it.. so do i..<3 i love yu babyyy please to continue to watch over us.. p.s Couriana is getting o big, it kills me that she has no idea who i am.. but she sure does know who her auntie court is.. <3 she has your curls, your color hair.. oh my shes beautiful court..<3 i know your proud watching and quiding over us all..<3 love yu
Sydnei (close friend/ sister)
May 14th, 2011
Sweetheart...I miss you so much...It's been two years since the accident and yet it feels like yesterday. I can't begin to tell you how hard it's been knowing I just don't have you in my life, to see your beautiful smile, hear you laugh, and just to be able to talk to you and tell you I love you everyday! There is this sadness and heartache that just won't go away.
Michelle Engle (Mom)
January 30th, 2011
hey court
its hard to believe its been 2 years since you have left us. we miss you everyday. couriana is getting big. your brother got a new girlfriend, shes a complete bitch. i dont like her at all. lol. well i just wanted to drop a line and say hello. i know its been awhile since i wrote but some stuff happend which you already know since you watch us everyday. i hope your resting easy kiddo. love and miss you
Brian Engle
January 30th, 2011
My pretty princess, today we spent the day honoring you and others that gave someone the gift of life. It was full of alot of tears and heartache. As proud as I am that you were able to save a few other people, my heart nor my head understands why you were chosen. You should have been able to live you life alot longer and been given the chance to grow into the beautiful women I know you would've been. I miss you more than you or anyone knows or understands. There is never a day that goes by that I don't think of you and wish you were still with your family. You are loved and missed every moment of every day. My life or our family will never be the same without you, princess!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
October 24th, 2010
Hey Courtney, I am so sorry its been so long since i have wrote you. I have been so busy you would be so surprised. lol I am actually in the navy and in cali. I wish i could have seen this. I miss you so much. I know we only had about 5 summers together but it felt like so much longer then that. We would hang out all summer then it would end, but then you guys would be back and we would pick up like it was nothing. you were one of my bestfriends court, and i wish you were still here. I have been thinking about you alot lately. you were such a great person i changed my life. I love and miss you so much. I know you are up there watching over everyone and we will meet again. thank you for being such a good friend.
Samantha Hill (friend)
September 28th, 2010
My beautiful Court,
I have not been on here in a very long time. I've tried not to because of the pain. But went home for a long visit and came back with such a grief again because nothing is the same.
August is approaching and I dread it because it's when you and Kyle would be here. I always could count on you my princess. Never having my own children, but you made me feel special. Now that's gone...
Watch over us Court. Miss you more than ever...your Alaine forever.
Alaine Draus (Great Aunt)
July 6th, 2010
Happy Birthday In Heaven Courtney, We All Love And Miss You So much.
jeanette engle (aunt)
May 24th, 2010
Happy Birthday, Princess...I hope you are celebrating your day with Kyle...I can't tell you how much I miss you this very day. Oh princess...I love you and miss you every moment of every day
Michelle (mommy)
May 24th, 2010
Happy Birthday in Heaven Courtney! We miss you more and more everyday! Your niece Courianna is such a princess and I know you are watching over her!
stacey dorris (aunt)
May 24th, 2010
So right now court i'm in school making a scrapbook. I needed to find pictures of you so i came on here and started balling my eyes out when i saw the pictures of everyone + me & you singing at my grams party. Your on my apprication page & my Music page. I put jesus take the wheel for the song and your pictures are on both pages. I got this poem for you boobie..never thought i would come up with such a thing. But i miss you so much and i wish you were here with me right now.
Well here the poem goes:
"You can shed tears that she is gone, or you can smile because she has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all she's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see her, or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your backon tomorrow and live for yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember her only that she is gone, or you can cherish her memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back. Or you can do what she'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

Courtney Leigh Engle;
Iloveyou & miss you with all my heart babygirl!
Tuna Helper Queens for Lifee<33
i wish i can feel you & i wish i can see you.
Me and bri were talking the one day thinking we saw you & kyle in his car it looked exactly like yous. & me and bri didnt even see yous on the same day. I hope that was yous..come visit me in my room & talk! I have all your stuff on my wall..and i keep you & kyle's prom picture in my wallet so everytime i open it i always see you. Iloveyou so much boobie...i hope your in a better place. I'll see you VERY VERY SOON<3
ILOVEYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!
1st BOOBIE! 2nd BOOBIE! (2nd sissy<3)
May 13th, 2010
heey court, i miss yu so much! i really wish yu weree here. summers comin up, it'll be another one without yu there:( i can't believe it's already over a year, it seems like just yesterday.. & yet it still feels so unreal, like it's all just a dream & we will wake up from it soooner or later. couriana is gettin so big! i wish yu were here to hold her:) she just warms yur heart. field hockeys comin up, gotta help me out again! we're gunna kick some butt<3 i have a concert to go to today:) i'm goin to see carrie underwood with my mom. bri asked me if i'd be couriana's god mother, i'm so happy. i was hopin she would ask me.. i can't wait to see yu again, in the future! like i say every night, i love yu & miss yu & i wish yu were still here. not a day goes by i don't think of yuuu!
kerinne dorris (cousin)
March 29th, 2010
Missing you so much...Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and wish that there is someway I could change things...I love you and miss you every second of every day!!!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
March 28th, 2010
hey court! i miss yu so much, it's unbelievable. i wish yu were here to see couriana:) shhe is gorgeous & her smile just fills yur heart! i wish yu were here so we could hang out togetheer & yu could teach me some trick fur field hockey but ik fur a fact yu were with me this year when i was playin. we may not have won any haha, but yu sure did help mee:) it would just be the best if i could here yur voice again or just rewind time & make sure that yu weren't in that car or make sure i was atleast able to tell yu i love yuu. i miss yu soo much.. this experience brought our family so much closer bc we really learned that yu never kno when someone could be gone. i yell @ everyone that says they hate their relative or something bc i don't want them to go through what our family did & remember that the last thing they said about that person was they hate them & not i love them. i will never ever say i hate any family member & i'll make sure i make right choices & be careful & i learned that from yuu. ik what my goals are & no one will stop me ffrom reaching them, i'm very determined. i just wish i could sit down & talk to yu like i do bri noow. i'm happy that our family is closer i just wish this didn't happen to make us closer & yu were still here with us & all of us were together again. i love yu court! i miss yu so mucch!! everyday i think of yu & sometimes i cry but than i think, what would court want me to be doin right now, she'd prob tell me to suck it up:) haha. i love yu court, i miss yuu!
kerinne dorris (cousin)
February 8th, 2010
Hey Court.... i think and miss you all the time.. your missed every moment of every day courtney... ii hope you liked my balloon i sent to you even tho it got a hole in it right b4 i was releasing it... it still floated not so fasr but it still did lol... i love an miss you so much... <3
Sydnei Simon
February 6th, 2010
Hey court. I thought about you all day yesterday. I hope nana is up there taking good care of you, scratch that i know she is. i miss you soo much :( I'm sorry i couldn't come to visit you cause I'm up at college but mom said she sent up a teal balloon from me. I hope you liked it :) I have that picture of me you bri and jessalyn from her 16th birthday party up on my dresser. My roomie always tells me how pretty you were. i miss you and love you <33333

Carissa McMahon (cousin)
February 4th, 2010
The pain is still so real, princess. It seems like yesterday...but yet I haven't seen you, heard your laughter, or seen your beautiful smile in so long and that makes the pain even worse. I miss you every moment of every day...I'm thinking about you constantly today...and everyday...I love you princess!
Michelle Engle (Mom)
February 3rd, 2010
The last 6 weeks have been rough for me. I miss you every day...and the holidays always make it much hardier. Its so hard to celebrate when we've all been together for the last 18 years. It just isn't the same without sharing it with you too. Bri and Shane decorated our tree - they hung everyone of your ornaments. And you know, you have a lot! Sorry Princess, I just couldn't do it. I definitely could've done with out the holidays this year...and probably the years to come. I just can't stop thinking about you. I've been having so many dreams about you...they are so real The other night I had a dream about chasing you...you were wearing your little blue dress coat w/ the black collar. Do you remember it? I believe I have a picture of grammy great holding you on her lap in it...you will have to ask her too! I am going to look for that picture but not right away. I think I would cry too much. Anyway, you were running and laughing w/ you little curls just flopping around...I think you were having fun making me chase you. I woke up wishing I could go back to sleep, but I was also trying to remember if that was a real memory that I was dreaming about. I love you Court...this next couple of weeks are going to be real tough too...I'm still in disbelief and I'm going to wake up to this nightmare...but I just can't believe it's going to be a year. I'm so heartbroken, I just don't think its going to get any better. Not a day goes by when I don't shed tears thinking about you...You have my heart with you princess...I can't tell you how much I love you!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
January 4th, 2010
Hey Court....Its New Years Eve and I can't stop thinking about you......Everyone misses you so much and we just wish you were here with us. The holidays have been especially hard without you. Just wanted to let you know you are always in my heart....Give Kyle and gramm and pop a hug for me...Love you girl...
Stacey Dorris (Aunt)
December 31st, 2009
Courtney... i miss you so much.. i think about you all the time.. i know i havent wrotten in awhile im sorry.. but there's not a day that goes by that i don't miss or think about you... couriana reminds me of you.. she has so much hair...!!! it doesn't seem to get any easier... i cnt believe it been 9 months already.. its so unreal.. i miss talking to you, and always having fun wit each other.. ill never forget everythin we had.. i love an miss you so much...
Sydnei Simon (Close friend)
November 14th, 2009
I just want you back...there's no easier way too say it...I want you back...It's so unfair that you were taken the way you were! I just want you back! I miss you more every day. I just want you back...I miss you..your voice..your smile..your personality...i miss you..the holidays are coming...and all I think about is you! I love you & miss you then, now and forever...I just want you back!
Michelle Engle (Mom)
November 5th, 2009
Oh Princess...I miss you more than ever! I haven't written to you in awhile...it hurts so much so times to be here...It's been 9 mos now I don't seem to be able to talk about it anymore than I did then. I miss talking to you everyday! I miss you!!! Bri had our lil princess September 29...you would love her!!! You were suppose to be here to spoil her...you were her godmother...so now i guess you will be her guardian angel. She is beautiful...reminds me a lot of you...a lot of dark hair! When I'm with her, I feel something I haven't felt since you left. I miss you princess...I so want you to come home! There are times when I think I'm losing it...I miss you so much! I started telling Couriana about you...I end up crying...but one day she will know all about you...I promise you that. I love you and I miss you more every day...Ahhh princess life just isn't the same!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
November 5th, 2009
hey court, i miss you so much. i play field hockey and i love it, i wish you were still here so we could play tuhgether :/ there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about yu. this summer was so weird without yu and camping was too, im so used tuh yu being there. i miss yuuu so much court! i lovee yu<333
kerinne dorris (cousin)
October 19th, 2009
Hey doll! I was thinking about you today and just wanted to let you know that I miss you! Went to see Couriana the other day and my goodness she has so much hair! She is so beautiful! I think it's helping your mom to have her around... kinda like a piece of you is with her. She misses you terribly as do all of us! I love you!!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXXOXO
amy strobel (cousin)
October 18th, 2009
i remember when i first met you i knew that we would be friends. you were always a fun person to be around. never had anything negative to say. there was never a dull moment when i was with you.you would always grab life by the horns. we had so much fun in alaines pool. we would always play marco polo. we would always sit on alines furniture wet [she never liked that]. i still like the play-doh incident you could make something so small so fun to do. you know that night we never got to play monopoly. i remember that time you dared me to jump in the lake or river or whatever it was behind jim and sharons rv you said and i qoute "theres no alligators if there is ill get you out" and me giving in i got in the water it was nasty and smelly nd then i got stuck in the water and then you fell in trying to help me out cuz we didnt want to get caught we all came back laughing. if i had to pick a favorite time i had with you that will be it. you never mad me mad even when you kept playing beautiful girls omg. but i miss you so much there will never be another you you were one of a kind. even though i only talked to you every summer i felt like i known you for a lifetime. my summer will never be the same now. i love you so much.i miss you
cassandra hill (friend)
October 11th, 2009
hey court!! wats up? we miss you sooooo much the summers suck without you. geez its been a while, wat two days before the nightmare i try very hard each day to believe was just a dream? well i hope you know ill never forget the day you came over with kyle to help me and my sisters set up the rock band oh man it was so funny because none of us understood it except for kyle. and then we played monopoly for a while. you are a true friend and i am greatful you were in my life in some way because true friends are hard to find harder to leave and impossible to forget. ill never forget you. i love you like a cousin and while other girls are praying for a love that is true when i pray at night i thank god for you.You would be so happy briana had couriana tuesday september 29,2009 she is just beautiful she looks almost exactly like you. but you probably already know that from watching over us. i hope you and kyle are having a blast on those white cloud beaches that go on forever. i miss you dearly and hope to see you soon. remember i love you more than yesterday but not as much as tommorow. love you forever. -liz
Elizabeth Hayward (Friend)
October 3rd, 2009
I miss you horribly today Princess!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
September 22nd, 2009
well my love, I think back remembering that nite your loving mom called to tell us about the accident. Now it's almost the end of September and your mom's birthday will be here soon. It also means you'll be in heaven almost 9 months.It still seems like yesterday and a terrible nightmare. So many things have changed since then, but not all the love we all have for you. Before long our little Couriana will be arriving.
I know you'll be there in spirit praising our new addition to the family. Pop and I will be heading to PA in a few more days. I know the first time I hold our little one, I'll be thinking of you. I miss you
terribly.

Sharon Dorris (Grandmother)
September 19th, 2009
Hey Princess...Missing you very much this week!!! I can't believe its been so long - 7 mos. Everything reminds me of you. Its unbelievable. I just watched this movie "The Family Stone" and at the very end it made me realize how hard this Christmas is going to be on me and the family! Just decorating the tree is going to be very hard ... you have so many ornaments ... I don't even want to think about it! All I want for Christmas is too have my whole family back! Not a day goes by that I don't think about that horrible night and wish there was a way I could've protected you and Kyle. I miss you Court every moment of every day. Life is never going to be the same with out your beautiful smile, your quirky attitude and your laughter!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
September 3rd, 2009
Hey court...Wow 7 months since we've seen you...Still trying to understand all this..Miss you and love you..
stacey dorris (aunt)
September 3rd, 2009
heyyyyyy... court just wanted to say hey i miss yu everyday and also think of you all the time.. there's these twins i work wit... their names are elena and alicia.. alicia reminds me of bri so muchh than theres elena.. yu dnt even understand she makes me think of yu all the time.. yu's are just alike its unreal.. i think thats why she one my closest friends there.. it hurts tho i just wish it was yu.. 46 more days till Couriana is here and i cnt wait to meet her, hold hr everythin.. im counting down i appreciate nd consider it a honor to be the god mother i promise i wnt let yu dwn, nor yur family.. and yu knw it.. i love and respect yur family so much.. their my family!!1 always wass..everytime i come on here i cnt help but to ball my eyes out.. no1 can take the pain.. no1 its hard its still like so unreal.. i talk bout yu all the time yu always brightened my day.. you nd bri are nd were the sisters i never had.. i love yu's both.. bri takes it so well; i knw yur helpin her.. we all miss nd love yu so much.. it impossible to forget yu and yu'll never be forgotten.. life's just gettin harder and it sucks.. sunni misses and talks and cries for yu all the time.. we love yu court... it's bout to stormm right now.. tell kyle i said hi nd pauly d nd i miss you's all.. hope you's are all together livin life.. in a better place being our angels watching over us.. :)
" i close my eyes and think of you, In my heart you'll always be.."<3
Sydnei Simon (Close friend)
August 11th, 2009
Hi Princess...I just wanted to say I miss you with every breath that I take...I can't believe its been 6 months...I feel like this nightmare has just begun. I replay everything in my head, every moment since the accident occurred...every word all the doctors said...I just can't get pass it. I dream about you a lot...thank you...I get to hear your voice, hug you and just talk to you...I miss you every moment of every day...We are all trying to get on each day, but you wouldn't believe how much of an impact you not being here makes on all of us. Court, your laughter, spirit, and goofiness is so missed...I hope you knew how much you were loved and how much you are being missed. It goes without saying that I wish life was a movie and I could reverse time and have you back...Life is never going to be the same and I will be always cry and be sad each day that you won't be in my life. I love and miss you every moment of every day...
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
August 7th, 2009
Good Morning my love,
Well, princess, here we are again. I'm missing you so terribly. Couldn't wait to go to Myrtle Beach for some family time and relaxing but that was a mistake.
Listening to some people complain about nonsense was and is driving me up a wall. But then I'm doing the same. My nerves are shot. You must be having a field day up there watching all of our lunacy!
Nothing is the same though. Now August is around the corner and you would be coming for your summer visit...and my heart just aches for you. It’s what I always looked forward too…
Keep watching over us all, sweetheart, as we all struggle to make sense of losing you.
Uncle Lenny and I so miss you...all our love for every and always.
Alaine Draus (Aunt)
July 28th, 2009
hey court, i miss you so much, camping hasent been the same and everyone has been saying how much i remind them of you and it makes me so happy because your my hero and i look up to you, i always have and to hear that from everyone it makes me feel good. i miss seein you around all the time, its not the same. i lovee and miss you <33
kerinne dorris (cousin)
July 27th, 2009
Hey babygirl...Cant believe its been 5 months since we got to see your beautiful face...We all miss you soooo much..Espicially since summer is here. Been spending lots of time with the family and wish you were here..I love you and miss you every second of every minute of every day!!!!
STACEY DORRIS (AUNT)
July 6th, 2009
Well my little love, tomorrow you'll have been gone for five months. The pain and angish of losing you hasn't eased for any of us. When I talk to my friends of a story I want so much to share about you, I say your name and I fill up with such tremendous grief, that I can't talk. You were such a big part of our life, I don't ever think it will leave, nor do I want it to. Your Mom shares some of the dreams she's been having of you. and I want so much to console her, but I can't find the words that will help her pain. I feel the warmth of her dreams about you in my heart, but when we say goodbye my heart just breaks and then the tears flow like a river. So I found this little saying and I think of it often, "Close your eyes think of me, In your heart I'll always be". And there you will always stay. Oh by the way I'm texting now, a little to late for you and me, so lol i luv u 2!
Sharon Dorris (Grandmother)
July 2nd, 2009
Hey princess! I'm thinking about you a lot this week, not that it's different than most weeks. However, its going to be 5 months that you have been missing from our lives & its also the 4th of July! We always went to Wendy & Richies for their big party. I can't do it this year. I know I'd be watching for you. You were always with us for this party. You wanted to spend time w/ Kyra. And sometimes its just so hard seeing your friends. They make me miss you even more. Everything we do revolves around you and us missing you. Our lives will never be the same, Court! We try so hard to believe you are in a better place, but we can't seem to get over the whys & hows God could take a special person like you. I love you so much it hurts everyday that I can't see or talk to you...I just want you to come home to me & say it was all a nightmare. As I go through each day with out you, I don't see how it can possibly get any easier. I love sissy & shane just as much as I ever loved you, but I have such a hole in my heart right now that no one seems to be able to fill! They all try so hard to keep me from losing it, that sometimes I think I've been selfish & really haven't been there for them. But I just can't help it, Court...I just don't understand how this all happened to you.! I love you and I miss you...you'll always be my princess!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
June 30th, 2009
courtney!!!
hey girl it's been awhile since i got to go on here i'm sorrryy!! i'm working two jobs nd takin a summer class!! yay me.. Help me lol but i havn't forgotten about you and i want you to know that, even tho i know you already know. i miss nd think of you all the time.. Briana has asked me to be the mother of Couriana.. thank you!! really thanks you'll always be her god mommy tho and she will know that..!! even tho she's going to be YOU..!! it's really a blessing and i can not ask for anything more.. i love you courtney engle nd miss you so much your always in our hearts..
truely yours..
courtney my love.. lol
LOVE YOU
Sydnei Simon (Friend)
June 22nd, 2009
Hey my princess...I'm so missing you! We are getting ready to take our camping trip this weekend. Another first I'm going to have to get through! It won't be the same without you there. This year it's Promised Land State Park. Lots of trails to hike. Once again, we got a group of us going. You'd enjoy it! I miss you princess. I miss you more and more with each day that passes by with out you here. I'm going to miss you even more this weekend. Just do me a favor, and come visit me again in my dreams, especially this weekend. I want to know you are with us! Love you baby girl....every moment of every day!
Michelle Engle (Mom)
June 18th, 2009
Happy Birthday Princess....I know I'm a day late but thats only because I wasn't able to get on line...I was with Mommy and Daddy and Bri and and your Aunts and Uncles for the past 2 days...We all miss you terribly and the hurt never stops...I had to spend this weekend with them because I knew I would feel more at peace if I was with them instead of my friends....Court, you were such a beautiful child and a more beautiful young woman and no one will ever forget that...Hope Kyle and Gramma and Pop Great made your birthday in Heaven special for you...I love you and miss you every second of every day...
stacey dorris (Aunt)
May 25th, 2009
Happy 19th birthday, our princess.
Can't believe the diffence between 05/24/90 and 05/24/09.
But for those precious "almost" 19 years, you will always be such a precious gift God gave to me and Uncle Lenny. I treasure all of our moments together, princess, and you will be in our hearts FOREVER. And I thank Mommy and Daddy everyday for allowing us to love you so much; it was an honor they gave us and we will treasure all the remaining days of our life. You were everything I would have wanted if we had been blessed with our own child. Thank you again, our Princess, Courtney....may your birthday in Heaven be as beautiful as you deserve and more...I can only imagine! (Give Gram & Pop a great big huge & kiss, oh and Mandy and of course our Kyle!)
With so much love, your Uncle Lenny & Alaine.....
Alaine Draus (Great Aunt)
May 24th, 2009
courtney my love..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN..
i miss and love you so much courtney its not the same w/o you. but you in a better place.. i hope kyle did something really special for you.. it would of been 4 yrs.. acouple days ago.. not a day goes by that i don't regret getting you's together nor not a day goes by that i dont think or miss you terribly.. your always in my hearts nd prayers.. keep taking care of us nd holding eeryone together..
ily Courtney Leigh Engle..
sydnei Simon (Close friend)
May 24th, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEAUTIFUL(:

I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I had a dream the other night that we went to prom... but we didnt have dresses? It was hilarious. Today me and Clarissa went to visit you. We put birthday candels all over and tacked some balloons to the ground. A lot of them popped in our faces... we figured you were probably getting a kick out of that. Were going to come see you every Sunday. I miss you so much giiirl.
I hope youre having a GREAT day in heaven, celebrate hard (; Kyle better be taking care of you my love, I know he is. Well I'll see you Sunday.

LOVE ALWAYS YOUR MAKELLY<3<3<3<3
MaKella Cormier (Close Friend)
May 24th, 2009
Happy Birthday Court!
love you. <3
-jes
Jessica McMahon (cousin)
May 24th, 2009
Happy Birthday, Princess! Today is not the same without you, love. Its so hard to celebrate this day. There is such sadness in my heart right now You and sissy gave me the best gift of life 19 years ago. There couldn't be happier parents then dad & I the day we were blessed with twins. We love you and miss you every moment of everyday...
MIchelle Engle (Mom)
May 24th, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY COURTNEY WE ALL MISS YOU
jeanette engle (aunt)
May 24th, 2009
Court,
I've started to write this a hundred times before, but I could never finish. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and my bud. It is necessary to remind myself everyday that you are both truly gone and my heart breaks all over again. I tried to stay strong to hold it together for everyone else, but that just made it worse for me. I've finally realized that I must embrace the memories of good times and remain thankful that I was blessed with those. Although I'll never know the reason why you both were taken from us while I am on this earth, I do know this...You were a truly exceptional person. Kyle adored you with all of his heart, as did the rest of our family. You had a radiance that brightened the lives of everyone around you. It was impossible to be in a bad mood when you were around. Though you have gone on to a higher place, this same radiance will help your family and friends get through the hardest of days. Please continue to watch over us as we make this difficult journey. I love you and miss you both!
Charleen Higgs (Friend)
May 24th, 2009
I remember when you and Bri first came home from the hospital.I thought what a wonderful gift.As you and Bri got older,watching Uncle Steve and Uncle Jeff walking you up the alley to the playground. How they loved you so.Then you got bigger,running around and smiling with those curls bouncing was a wonder to be seen. All the hearts you've touched you might have never none. I'm sure you can feel the love where you are now.
I can still see you now in the back yard the first time we gave you ice cream, you had this big grin and licking your lips. Then we had all those trips to Lancaster and Harrisburg.Your Pop would hold your hand when you'd have to get a new immpression of your teeth. We'd always stop to eat afterwards to make it all better. How about when you were taking dancing lessons. You had Pop out in the back yard doing your dance routine with you. What a good laugh we had that day. we continued to watch you grow up enjoying soccer and become quite famous in field hockey. You became a wonderful young woman, seeing you in all your pictures of your proms, You and Kyle looked so wonderful together. How
you glowed and enjoyed life. When you would come to Florida and come to visit Pop and I and we'd go out fishing or just take a boat ride,and
seeing you sun bath on the pool deck.
The best was when you could finally get to drive the golf cart Oh, yes and the memories we have of you decorating our anniverary cake.
How excited and proud of you we were to see you graduate and know you were heading to college in the fall.
Our lives are full of events but losing you wasn't one we were ready for. We can't beleive your gone, but in my heart I know we'll love you forver and when it's time we'll see you again.
All Our Love
Pop and Gram
Sharon Dorris (Grandmother)
May 22nd, 2009
Hi Princess, I have to say I love you & miss you more every day! Who ever told me it would get easier is so wrong! It's Mothers Day! Its my first Mothers Day with out you! 18 years, Court! There wasn't a moment today I didn't think about what a wonderful daughter you are! I miss you princess more than words can express...there is not a day that I haven't shed tears for you...No one needs to tell me I still have your sister and brother...I know that...I'm probably more protective than ever...But I don't have you and your a big piece of a puzzle that will never be finished again! I just want you back! Everyday I just want you back! I just want to wake up and have you back! I've never been this selfish before but all I think about is what I've lost and what I'm missing...it's bad but Princess I never ached for something so bad until now...I miss you...i love you for always
Michelle Engle (Mom)
May 11th, 2009
Well, Sweetheart, here we are. Another day. Another long day. It seems to be unanimous, that the pain without you is getting worse.
When I hear Mommy's pain, Gramma's , Cora's, everyone's…it is so unbearable. Before I would need to be there for everyone – to be the listener, the shoulder to lean on, the helper, the fixer, and help them thru this but can't seem to get passed my own selfish pain. It's so hard because I keep coming back to why God allowed you & Kyle to be taken from us. It's no wonder we all question it. But then I stop - even in this heart wrenching pain, and realize how could He not need someone like you both - with your gifts, your spirits. And what if there was no God, then that would mean there would be no seeing you and Kyle and Gramma Great EVER again. And we can't accept that...that can't be what our lives are meant for. There must be more beyond here. So to hold on, we have to trust God's plans, hard as it is, and prayer for strength to get beyond this horrible grief. And with your beautiful smile in my mind every second of every day, I will try harder to make sure that I too would be worthy to be welcomed Home…and be with all of you one day! That is the hope we must all cling too.

Oh, and on the lighter side – please knock it off with the snakes! I've seen enough already…
Love You Most - your Alaine
ALAINE Draus (Great Aunt)
May 4th, 2009
I miss you so much princess...it hurts everytime I think about you and how you were taken so suddenly from us. Its been 3 months now and the heartache is just getting worse the longer we are apart. I've been falling apart the last couple of days. I have never felt this kind of heartache in my life...I love you with all my heart forever. Not a day goes by that I don't wish I could take back time and still have you with us.
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
May 3rd, 2009
Hey baby girl...I still don't understand all of this...I miss you sooo much...The hurt doesn't seem to e getting easier..Only harder everyday...Its been three months already and still unbelievable....Love you and miss you....

I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too,
I think of you in silence I often speak your name
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame
Your memory is my keepsake with which I’ll never part
God has you in His keeping I have you in my heart.
________________________
No farewell words were spoken,
no time to say goodbye, you were
gone before we knew it, and only
God knows why
_________________________
If tears could build a stairway,
and memories a lane, I’d walk
right up to heaven and bring you
home again.
stacey dorris (aunt)
May 3rd, 2009
Our Dearest Courtney,
Well our little princess, today it's 3 month's since you left us. I truly don't know how we'll
ever be able to get on in our lives without you. You are so missed by everyone. We see you in everything we do and everywhere we go.But for today we will go on because it's your little brother's birthday. He's 18 today. I'm sure you must feel his love and hurt today, and
Mommy and Daddy's. Every memory we have of you is a blessing and someday we'll all be together again.
Sharon Dorris (Grandmother)
May 3rd, 2009
Hey Princess...Mommy can't believe it's been this long that we talked. I'm thinking of you today...ALOT! Daddy and I went to the flea market this morning, and we see an pair of twins. They were identical, blonde and curly! What reminded me of you was the curls but yet it was the stroller too! It seems like yesterday when I had you and sissy...Not almost 19 years ago. I'm still hurting - I'll always be hurting for you! It's not fair...and right now I don't think I will ever understand or accept Gods plan! I'm so selfish...I want you here with me. I'm not sure where my faith lands right now honey...he made a huge mistake. There are so many other people that don't care where their lives lead them tomorrow, they never learn, and they just don't care, but God takes YOU!( and KYLE) Just not sure what to believe anymore. I am missing you more and more every day. I want what I can't have...I want to hear you talk, I want to hear you laugh, I want to hear your quirky personality, and I want to see your beautiful face. I want you! I love you my princess and there will never be a day a don't think about you or miss you til my heart aches!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
April 27th, 2009
Hey Court
Aunt Dawn and i just got home from florida. I wanted to write sooner but its been real hard for me. We have moved around over the years. Alaska, louisiana, and now missouri, i have missed so much, in everyones lives it seems, I kick myself in the ass for not making it there for your graduatuion party. It seems like just yesterday aunt Dawn and I lost our other Niece Nevada, And now we lost you too. But we had 18 years with you. i rememer when we took you and bri to see the sword in the stone you wiped butter from your popcorn in aunt Dawns sweater she still has the sweater and it still has your signature on it. We miss you sweatheart. you gave everyone that ever met you a lasting impression. even the little ones, Makayla aven talks about you. We love you
Jim Dorris (uncle)
April 23rd, 2009
Hey Courtney! Just thinking about you. Alison and I booked our flight the other day go down ALAINE and Uncle Lenny's. Just remembering times and how it's probably going to a little strange not to see you down there when we go. The time's we have been there, you and Bri were always there. Our partners in crime! It will be different, but don't worry I am sure we will be talking about you! Good of course! But I'm sure you'll be laughing with us or at us! <3 love you much!
Tara Slusser (Cousin)
April 22nd, 2009
Pop and I went to Disney with your Uncle Jim and Aunt Dawn and the kids! It was a beautiful day, except for standing in line for one of the rides with this slendor long dark hair beauty standing in front of me. All I could think of was you, I thought my heart would explode with the pain I felt. Pop and I miss you terribly. I know you have to be walking along the beach holding hands with kyle in heaven, so I look up to the sky and hope your looking back and smiling.You are with us always. I wish so I could've hugged you one last time or heard you say "Hey Gram" . At least I had a hand squeeze before you left us. Who's going to decorate our anniversary cake when Pop and I are married 50 years!
Sharon Dorris (Gram)
April 20th, 2009
My precious Court,
Today is not a good day; not sure why but I especially miss you again today. It's a beautiful day and maybe that is why, this kind of day always makes me think of you. I can see you and Kylie in the pool, drinking your pina colada's (pouting because we wouldn't give you alcohol!), but still like little kids with those silly mustache straws from Taco Bell! How you both could get me to laugh...I just don't know how I will ever genuinely laugh again. And I can see you both plain as day cooking together in our kitchen right now. What a beautiful couple...truly meant for one another! So wish you were here, just can't believe this yet.

But thank you too sweetheart for finding my Pandora dolphin charm on Easter morning and placing it in my jewelry box! There is no other explanation...
I so love you most my angel girl…and please, you and Kyle, be by our sides as much as possible but especially Mommy and Cora.

Alaine Draus (Great Aunt)
April 16th, 2009
Courtney,
You changed our Kyle's life. You kept him out of trouble. I remember the day in court when Bre started with you and you cried because you were the better person and you were so heart broken with what she said but yet you always had it in your heart to forgive. You will always be a part of our family. We all LOVE YOU dearly. I so wish it was your wedding we all attended. There is nothing I could even think about you other than what a good person you were. Also what a kind heart you had. I hope to see you and Kyle once again. I LOVE YOU and miss you BOTH!!!
Denise Davies (Kyle's Godmother)
April 15th, 2009
Dear Courtney,
I came across this poem and new I had to share it with all who new and loved you so!

Always and Forever

Why are you crying? Do you think that I'm gone?
I haven't left, I'm where I belong. anytime you are lonely, anytime you are sad, anytime your heart breaks, anytime you are mad-all you have to do is close your eyes and I'll be there with you.
You see the world may take my body but that's all it can do. When jesus died upon the cross, he took away our sins. He conquered death so we can live in heaven where life begins.
Don't stop the memory of the time we shared.
It's God's way to help you through,, take time to laugh when life gets hard, the way we used to do! A smell? A touch? The morning sun? They all will help you see, I'm still there I never left, Now smile once more for me. Live each day, keep looking up, My life not in vane. I finished the task I was born to do.That's why I
couldn't remain.
Until I see you-I love you forever and Always
Sharon Dorris (Grandmother)
April 13th, 2009
Happy Easter, Princess! I can't tell you enough how much I miss you and today is harder than most. I am loving you and thinking about you today, and I am really just sad knowing we will never have you with us during the holidays anymore. I can't tell you how hard it is here with out you... I am missing you every minute of every day! I love you Court....
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
April 12th, 2009
Our Dear Courtney,
I'm sure your up in heaven with that smile of smiles, surrounded by all our loved ones that have left before you. I'm sorry I haven't wrote this sooner, but the heartache of having you gone, saying your name, looking at your pictures followed by so many tears was more than I could bear. I remember how excited you were about driving the golf cart last time you and Kyle came to visit. There are so many wonderful memories we have of you being in our lives for 18 years. I know as time passes we'll have more smiles than tears as we recall all the wonderful times you gave us. We miss you terribly and that void will never be filled.
Sharon Dorris (Grandmother)
April 7th, 2009
Hello my sweet princess...I can't believe its been two months since I last heard you talk or laugh and seen your beautiful face or smile. Its so difficult, Court! I miss you more and more as the time goes by. Everybody tries to keep me busy, but there is not a moment when my heart is breaking for you. I dream about you all the time. Sometimes the dreams are of you as a little girl and then of you as the beautiful young women you turned out to be. I wake up wishing that this nightmare never happened and you will be sitting there laughing at me. I miss you babygirl. I love you always...Mommy
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
April 3rd, 2009
Courtney...I can't believe we've already been without you for 2 months....It still feels like a nightmare..Everyday I can't help but look at your beautiful face and feel so empty. For 18 years you grew on evryone who knew you. We are having a hard time here without you Court....Please give us the strength we need...If anyone can do it you can...Just remember you are thought about every second of every minute of everyday!!!!!!!!!!!LOVE YOU BABY GIRL!!!
Stacey Dorris (Aunt)
April 3rd, 2009
Hey Court, its been a while, but everyday i still think of you! I keep a picture of you and Kyle from one of our proms right next to bed on my nightstand..I havent found the perfect frame for it yet, lol...Caitie Ko and I came to visit you on Valentines Day, the flowers are obviously gone, but that little white angel is still there! I know this because Michael Pickle and I were just there the other day to see you and Kyle! It was Mike's first time there since... he wanted to say hello :) We all miss you both dearly...and I know you and Kyle (side by side, like always,lol)are there to watch over us all the time. The other day I walked into my room and then slammed the door! Later I walked back in and I saw your picture on the floor, i know you were telling me to come see you so I finally made it there!! I'm sure i could ramble on all day to you about things but we'll end here for today...goodbye for now, but forever,

Love Always
Lacie
Lacy Strong (friend)
March 30th, 2009
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."
It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.
God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.

Ruth Ann Mahaffey (author)
©Copyright 1998-2009

Tara Dorris (Aunt)
March 26th, 2009
heyy court me leopold shane nd jess came to see you, kyle, paulyd, nd ed today it was nice the " I love you" you gave kyle is there it was beautiful i rem. when you made that for kyle i even asked shane if that was the one.. shane colored it in w/ white nd put a cross on it.. it was really nice... I miss you court...
R.I.P
Sydnei Simon (FRiend...)
March 23rd, 2009
Hey Court.
Its been almost two months since you have been gone. I can't help to keep looking at your pictures. I just can't believe that your gone. I just see how much everyone misses you. I no that we weren't really getting along. But i miss you. It hurts because not to much before the accident Mikey told me that you and Kyle wanted to hang out with us, but idk I regret not going. Everytime i'm out front and i hear a car pass i always have the habit to look and see if its kyle's car passing by. But not anymore. Its so hard to see your brother up at the house. He just always looks so heart broken in his eyes. And catie.. i no she misses you i just cant belive it. Well kid i really miss u.
~Kay
Kayla Bernstein (Friend of the Family)
March 20th, 2009
hey love... i miss you courtney so much i think bout you all the time i was thinking about when we use to walk to your house right after school me you nd bri...we'dlways make mac n cheese nd if you's didnt have it we walked to ruminski's... haha i miss those days so much... we had the same routine.. walking to your house, mom giving us rides to school or even making us walk wit our heavy field hockey bags... i wish i never quit fied hockey we were always partners nd did everything together.. or how you'd call me in the morning asking me what im wearing to school. rem we you tryed makin macncheese nd you messed up bri always had to make it.. we were crazy together.. i rem the day i called you asking you out for kyle... it was me kyle damon i called you from my phone we were sitting in ruminski's alloy it was a beautiful day out... you didnt believe me nd you were all excited nd when you would seee kyle in the hall you'd get so happy... you's didnt even know each other and ended up being the greatest couple.. i miss you nd kyle.. its not the same w/o you... im going for my tattoo soon i cnt wait im scared but its for you so im going to go through it not matter what... i'll never forgetu lfes not the same w/o you... ha nd rem when you gave me that pic of your dad... i still have it.. ill never forget what we had... i olive you princess...
always Sydnei Marie... nd just b4 im about to send this in "Heartless" comes on.. i miss you always nd forever..
court sunni even crys for you nd brings you up alot... ever since she was alittle she'd always rem you nd not bri idk how bri's name is so much easier but the thing it was just you... you had the best personality you were so crazy... everyone that knows YOU will never ever forget you it's impossible... love ya girl R.I.P
Sydnei Simon (close friend..)
March 20th, 2009
Courtt!
Every time I see or go to a Burger King I can't ever stop thinking of your love for cheesy tots! haha. Every time anyone asks to use my cell phone makes me think of you too - always after field hockey practice. =] I miss you and I'll never stop remember all the funny things from field hockey and school!

Love, Catt.
Cat Cooney (friend)
March 19th, 2009
court i miss sso much. Im always thinkin about you exspecially since you should have been here with me for spring break. i miss you and love you..
Sammie Hill (close friend)
March 18th, 2009
MY BABY LOVE!!
I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY. I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND WAIT FOR THAT TEXT FROM YOU...YOU WERE MY OTHER HALF. YOUR MY ANGEL NOW! ILL BE HERE TO WATCH YOUR LITTLE TY AND YOUR BABY LIB GROW UP!!
LOVE YOU PRINCESS
ALWAYS CAITIE KOZAK
YOUR BABY LOVE
Caitie Kozak (BEST FRIEND)
March 17th, 2009
I'm missing you today alot, princess! The weather is getting warm and everyone is starting to talk about the camping trips on the quads and our annual camping trip to the state park...and it just really saddens me that you aren't going to be able to be there with us anymore. Court, I'm not sure I could do it. I try so hard to find the strength to do these things that we've always done and it just doesn't seem right to do it without you. Its not only the camping trips...Easter is coming and I've always cooked all of our holiday dinners...and the last three years Kyle's been there with us too. I remember how you always had to have macaroni and cheese...if I didn't make it, you'd be upset...so there I'd go to the store to get the stuff I needed, so my little princess would have it for her dinner. I told daddy I didn't think I could make any dinners...It would hurt too much to see my table so empty...God, I miss you! I know everyone does...its not just me even though I can't seem to focus on anyone else. I never felt this kind of heartbreak, court...its so consuming! I just can't get over how unfair it is that such a wonderful, happy girl could be taken from her family. I love you so much princess...
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
March 17th, 2009
THE BROKEN CHAIN
We little knew that morning that God was going to all your name,
In life we loved you dearly, in death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone,
For part of us went with you, the day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you, you are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.
Stacey Dorris (Aunt)
March 17th, 2009
courtney i wrote you the other day and i guess i didnt write my last name so it never came up nd im really disappointed.. i miss you so much i think about you all time this sucks.. i think of all the times we had good nd bad we were so close my other hlf everything we went nd been through we grew up together.. nd how you would just call me outta the blue evevrytime you same damon ... tellin me everything lil thing.. well i hope you, kyle, pauly d, nd ed are all havin fun watching down on us.. you truely were one of my true friends.. ilu so much... nd watching that video of you makes me cry everytime nd smile.. im crying now just thinking of it... i miss you so much you were truely a great person nd a great friend... you'll never ever be forgotten.. bff -n- Always..
love you Sydnei...
i olive you Courtney..
Sydnei Simon (Close Friend)
March 16th, 2009
Court went to the beach last Saturday; you and Kyle should have been there with me, since it was Spring Break at LCCC. Today we would probably be taking you to the airport! All our special plans...it's just so hard. Miss you so much. Your Alaine... <3 <3 <3
Alaine Draus (Aunt)
March 14th, 2009
Hey Court. I think about you every day, just like every one else does. I remember all the good times we had together and its so weird to think that it's not going to be the 3 of us anymore. I'm so sorry for not being able to say good-bye to you in person. It seriously is something I will always regret. This was the last thing I expected. But, I know Nana Engle is watching over you and hopefully not giving you "one eyed bob" haha :] I miss you and I love you. <3

-Cricka
Carissa McMahon (cousin)
March 11th, 2009
So Courtney, you've left this life for a little over a month now and I can't get you out of my head. I've been doing somethings for school at Hanover Green every week and I keep telling myself that I am going to stop over to see you, but then it's like what do I say to you. You know we all miss you and I'm sure you only want to hear what's been going on with everyone. It's hard to think that you cannot say anyhing back, laugh, or make those silly faces....
Tara Slusser (Cousin)
March 9th, 2009
Hey babygirl! I'm thinking about you and missing you. I can't imagine a day that I won't ever feel this way. Silly things that I never noticed before remind me of you everyday. I was out for dinner with Heather and Kristen and a little girl with dance leotards came in with her mom... The little girl even had a head of curls like you. I thought of you at once, all your leotards and costumes...how time flies...you, Bri and Shane grew up way too fast! I wish I could've found a way to keep you all little, then I could've always been around to protect you. I miss you so much its undescribable!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
March 6th, 2009
hey Court...Its been over a month since you've been gone and it is not getting any easier. I just wish all of this was a nightmare and we'd all wake up. You touched everyone who knows you in a special way and it is going to take a while for all of us to come to terms with this. please help us all heal and know that you will never be forgotten..NEVER. We all love you and miss you so much.
Stacey Dorris (Aunt)
March 5th, 2009
I've been dreaming about you lately...They are so real. I see you. I hear you. The one dream I had...I caught you jumping up and down on your bed...your curls flying. You were laughing until you seen me and knew you were in trouble. I started to tell you..."how many times do i have to tell you not to jump on your bed...you are too big & you are gonna break your bed". And in the middle of the dream I remembered you were gone... I woke up crying...Court If you could be here with me today...we'd both jump on your bed and I wouldn't care if i'd have to buy you a new bed every week... It also reminded me of all the times dad & I lectured you about the future...we just wanted you to have the best...We always believed in you. Now I wish we would have paid more attention to the "todays" because now we don't have anymore of those...and i'm just so sad everyday...Some people tell me it will get easier but I don't see how...the more days that go by are more days I don't see that sparkling personality that i miss so much. We have so many pictures of you that capture your true personality that they all make me miss you. I love you Court...and not a day goes by that I don't love and miss you more than yesterday...I wish for the impossible everyday - for someone to wake me up from this horrible nightmare and to give my family back what they miss the most...and thats you!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
March 3rd, 2009
My beautiful Court,
I promised Uncle Lenny to allow me a month to mourn you and then I promised I would start to pick myself up and live life again like you would expect us too.
But my love, it seems to be getting harder everyday, not easier. You truly were such a gift. You & Kyle made me feel so secure in your love for us. I truly believed you would always be by our side today and be with us until it was our time to leave; and that's how it was supposed to be. Now I think of Spring break coming up and I knew you and Kyle planned to come down here then. But now what, Court?
I'm trying so hard to draw on my faith...and do know that in time God will get me and all of us that so LOVE you thru this. PLEASE! So your new job as one of God's special angels is huge...to watch over all of us, to help us heal, and to move forward, princess. And if anyone has such a gift, it would be you...so you need to get moving on all of us honey!
Love you so much more than these words can ever say...
LOVE YOU MOST,your Alaine forever & always <3 <3 <3
Alaine Draus (Aunt)
March 3rd, 2009
Hey Princess...I can't believe its been a month since you were taken from us. It feels like yesterday honey...I miss you so much honey. I miss seeing your beautiful face, hearing your voice, and just talking to you. I miss our girl dates...I remember the last one - shopping and the movies...we went to see "Bride Wars". I wish...I wish we could've had more time princess. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and cry. My heart just won't stop aching Court. I love you princess yesterday, today, and for eternity!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
March 2nd, 2009
court life sucks with out you and kyle i remmember all the good and bad times like they were yesterday me you and kyle made one hell of a team i remmember the one day when we took my guns out and kyle was to scared to shot my guns but you werent u i miss u so much "baby sis" i miss you and love you.......love bro
bro bro (brother)
March 2nd, 2009
Dear coutneyy...
well, where to startt...
You the most amazing cousin ever...u were always makeing ppl smile even when there sadd like i am but i am still smiling cuz i kno ur still here with all of us rite now. We have alot of good memories to keep in our hearts for ever and ever...but the good thing is tht ur with kyle in a happy place...wish u were here rite now so i can say how much u made my life happy. Your are so pretty. I know ur still watchin down on us...i always use to say tht angels watch us all the time...and ur one of them now...so kno tht i have a angel above me watchin me and all of ur friends a family...we all miss u so muchh...I wish i had time to say good-bye to u and give u a great big hug=]. I jus want to let u kno tht u changed my life 4ever and tht i will never forget about u...ur stuck in my heart...i miss u.
Your cousin...
♥Ashley♥
Ashley Kennedy (cousin)
February 26th, 2009
Hey Princess...I'm thinking about you alot today. There was a memorial banner yesterday hung for you, kyle, pauly d., erin, and eddie. We drove by it today to see it. It was a very nice thing that was done, but I just keep hoping that someone is going to wake me up from this nightmare... I have a such a hard time believing that this could actually happen to such a wonderful girl like you. I keep asking myself "why?" I probably won't ever have an answer and I'll never will have the answer that makes sense to me. I miss you babygirl...Love you always, Mommy
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
February 26th, 2009
courtney my love... i think bout you all the time i cry all the time... its just not the same w/o you here.. we go way way way back... you nd bri will be my sisters for life.. the sis's that i never had... i know your watching down on us... i pray for you nd your family all the time... i still cant believe its all true... it sucks so bad... im lost in this lil world.. lost court i know youll help me nd your family.. we gotta keep it together... we have soo mannnyyy memories we were unseperatable... than as we got older nd more involved wit your own lives nd into boys we weren't as close..i wish that didnt happen.. ill never forget everything we been through you are the best... only the BEST DIE YOUNG... i know your still here.. sometimes i think your wit me.. rem the time me u nd bri were playing chicken an after a couple hours the cops finally came me nd bri were chill but you were ballin ill never forget it me nd bri were laughin so hard.. you didnt want them to tell your dad or mom bc they like know everyone.. haha bri was over the other day nd we were just talkin bout all the good times... ill love nd cherish forver... i love you court nd kyle... im glad i got you's together you been through so much wit him i knew he really loved you.. but now you'll deff. be together forever.. i have so much to say but i cant.. my head races... it goes faster than i can think...
i love nd miss you so much... ill always cherish wat we had an pass everything to my child... your my sister, nd best friend, my other half...ilu ....
Love Sydnei Marie....
forever nd always<<<3333
Sydnei Simon (Close friend...)
February 26th, 2009
Courtney, I haven't had the honor of knowing you. That makes me sad. I know your going to be missed greatly. I'm a friend from your mommy's past. You and your sister where born on the same day, month and year of my son and when something like this happens to our children it's wrong! We sometimes take life for granted, not realizing that it may be our last! I will always think about you on your shared birthday's. I must say you are a" Sweet Angel " that was taken away much too soon. Fly with the Angel's baby!!!!!! All my love Angel & Family xoxoxo
Angel Stallone (Friend of Michelle)
February 26th, 2009
Boobie! i know you remember that lol. But we never remembered how we started calling eachother it? Or do you remember always taking food from my house, wait what was our favorite again? LOL the Tuna Helper!!! Hahahaha i would go in from the back door. Ugh iloveyou so much & miss you so terribly its crazy. i know you are up there smiling down on everybody that loves you, was always there for you, and who will always be there for you until we see you again, and i promise it wont take long at all. I would give you free food from down the pizza shop all the time, i remember we hated the step mom but shes okay now. We always had eachothers clothes Me you & Bri. We would be the only ones to share clothes prob cuz we can only trust eachother with them haha! How about when we would go on rides and blast the music so we wouldnt have to hear kyle bitching lol. Or how about we would always have to listen to his rock!! haha! In school was the best too! Your last 6th period<3 Or the camping trip when you came. That was sooo fun too! I miss and loveeee you boobie so much. Just know iloveyou & i still know your by my side because i feel you. Your my giiirl for life. I will always be here for bri and your family too. I loveee your aunt from flordia. And your wholeeee family is great babe! Remember kareoke singing together! I think it was like a virgin!!!! HAHAHAH. IMISS&LOVEEEYOUUU SO MUCHHHHH. I know your smiling down on everybody iloveyouuu. Your in a good place with the love of your life. I will always dream about you and pray for you. I miss you & kyle so much. Iloveyousss<3 Oh and you always wanted me to sing for you and i never did. If i can take that back i'd sing for you everyday. But you heard my voice on that day<3
Dominique Carannante (Close Friend)
February 25th, 2009
c.ENG<333

Courtney I still remember back in 8th grade how we have to sprint from my house to yours so you could make it home before your mom called so you could get all your chores done. Or how about Mr. Carey hating on us in Enlgish every year!He even had to seperate me you and Steve haha. We have so many memories that I'll never forget. I took Bri to the mall the other day and we check out some maternity clothes that will be a sight to see. You better be keeping Kyle in line cause God knows he needs you to do that. My heart truly goes out to your whole family, I know they are missing you terribly, but I also know you're watching down on them and everyone. Im gunna miss you girl, you were unlike anyone else.

Love Forever & Always,
MaKella.
MaKella Cormier (Good Friend)
February 25th, 2009
c.ENG<333
I love and miss you so much! I'll never forget all our good times.

Love, Makelly (:
MaKella Cormier (Good Friend)
February 25th, 2009
sissy! It's crazy here without you and it sucks not having my twin here with me. No more birthday's with you or anything i'll be all alone now. i just miss you alot and love you alot. i wish you wouldn't of left use. Everything happens for a reason though and atleast your up there with the love of your life and your not alone up there. i know your smiling down on all of use. Everyone is missing you NOONE will every forget you or kyle... you would of been the best godmother to.. its ok cause i know your still gonna watch over her or him. Make me have a girl though. :) i love you and miss you soo much.<33

Love always;
your sissy.
Briana Engle (Sister)
February 24th, 2009
Coutney,
I love u so much...u will always b in my heart...forever! Its been really hard...thinkin bout u all the time...and in school i cant even pay any attention to wat the teachers sayy...cause i am thinkin bout u...all the fun stuff we did together...I miss when u babysit me and Johnny...u always made it fun. You kyle and johny and me would go to the creek...and had funn. I cant believe it...Your the best and only cousin a girl could imagine to have...but i am lucky to have u..I miss u so muchh then anything in the world rite now...u are so special to me. I look up to u all the time. Love u.
-Ashley
Ashley Kennedy (cousin)
February 24th, 2009
Courtney..Omg i do not know where to begin with me and you lol all the crazy things we did. remeber when me you and kyle went to bk and ordered like a million things and drove away laughing all night long cause it was so funny, or how we used to sit down mr zs and wait for kyle all night it seemed like me you bri and my bro lol goin on all those crazy rides to like harveys lake and shit, god girl it sure is hard without you its def not the same i miss you more and more each day, especially when i need someone to talk to about shawn because you were always the first one right there to listen no matter what... but i know your in a better place with kyle but i love you girl cant wait to be together again love you sisitaaa...
stephanie danko (bestie)
February 24th, 2009
Oh Courtney, where to begin...Over the past several years we became closier from going down to Aunt Elaine's in the summer with you and your "SISSY". Remember we are "Lenny's Babes" I'm sure you do! Well I really don't know what else to say to you, but I'm sure your listening and watching down on all of us. I love you Courtney, you are and will be missed, but you will NEVER be forgotten. Your life will continue because so many of us love you, that our time with you will be told to many people. Courtney Leigh Engle the one and only silly, energetic, adorable, loveable girl. xoxo
Tara Slusser (Cousin)
February 23rd, 2009
courtney , i miss you soo much . you are the best cousin anyone could ever ask for . campings and quading arn't gunna be the same without you . we had so much fun playing soccer and football . swimming in dan's poool with you and kyle was so fun . whenever i needed advice or someone to talk to i went to you because you knew the right thing to say and you helped me out alot . i lovee you so much and i will never forget you .
kerinne dorris (cousin)
February 23rd, 2009
Courtney...I miss you so much...I was only 16 when you were born and remember how excited I was that I was going to be an Aunt TWICE for the first time...When mommy went to the hospital to have you Grammy told be to go to school...When I got there, I called Poppy and he came and got me and took me to the hospital. I was a part of you from day one because mommy lived with us when you were babies. I helped feed you and Bri everynight when you were little babies. I loved you both so much..When Mommy moved in with Daddy I was devestated. I cried..As I am crying for you now...I was in college then and came over to see you two every single day..During lunch...everytime I had a free moment I was there playing with you and Bri. Grammy used to tell me I was spending too much time with you two. I hurt so much for you now and I am glad I spent all my time with you when you were younger. Please watch over us and know that not a day goes by without me thinking about you and loving you...Love you always, Aunt Stacey
Stacey Dorris (Aunt)
February 23rd, 2009
I've been thinking about you all the time...I miss you! And honey, just so you know, I loved you from the moment I found out I was pregnant! You've heard this story probably a billion times... But I will never forget when I went for my first ultrasound. I was just past four months pregnant. I laid on the table for the tech to do the ultrasound and after a few minutes I was very sick to my stomach. And Court, I mean sick! I thought I was going to throw up right on the tech. I told her and she apologized that it was taking so long....It normally doesn't take this long, but she had to measure two babies. Yep you heard it...I heard it! TWO! You should've seen daddy's face when I went back to the waiting room to tell him. We blamed all his brothers and sisters. They all jinxed us. Pop-pop was a twin, no one else had the twins, so daddy, the baby, had to be the one. Oh, but the best was when I went home to tell Gram & Pop Dorris. I'll never forget when I showed the the picture of Baby A...Then I whipped out the picture of Baby B. I think we shocked everyone. TWINS! We were doubly blessed! My life changed forever. And now Court...Its changed again forever! I love you, princess, for always!
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
February 22nd, 2009
Hey princess, Mommy's having a bad weekend. Daddy and I went on the quad today for a ride, it wasn't the same. Can you believe mommy was actually afraid to go up the power line? You are probably laughing! We've done it tons of times. And for some reason, I was terrified this time. There we were with all our friends and we turned around because I'm having a panic attack. Of course, dad was mad at me...and guess what, I cried! Now I know you are laughing. Oh honey, I miss you. I'm having such a hard time with losing you. I think about you all the time. Its so hard not too. I'm trying so hard, Court, to think of all the good memories we all had together. But right now all I could think about is all the time we won't have together. I love you and I always will. And I miss you more than words can express.
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
February 22nd, 2009
hey Court.. idk really kno wutt to say.. im still in shock. i've known u for as long as ive lived in florida.. goin on about 8-9 years. the first day we met is still a fresh memory lol me and jenn were so scared to go over to alaine's.. but sum how my dad talked us into it. and we walked our lil happy butts over there and jumped right in the pool lol then all four of us became instant friends. every summer we were inseperable. playing "bombed" lol. i miss you sooo much, and i regret not seeing you the last time you were here. i love you, and i kno your lookin over everyone. your family will be in my prayers forever.

Love always, jessi
Jessica Mcullough (friend)
February 22nd, 2009
Baby girl...You changed all of our lives forever. I will think about you and luv you everyday of my life....Please watch over us like the angel you are....
Stacey Dorris (Aunt)
February 22nd, 2009
Court you were like a sister to me.We have only known each other for 6 years but it seem like forever. You were such a big part of my life and you always will be. I need you so much right now. I just wish it wasnt you. You were one of the best people I have ever met. You were always there for me. When I had something big to talk to you about, we went into elaines closest, LMAO. Or when you and bri were in the pool and you pulled me in with sweats on. So many memories. I love and miss you so much. You will always be in my heart. You will always be my bestfriend
Samantha Hill (Friend)
February 21st, 2009
Our Courtney,
We always wanted to watch over you - looking forward to your future, dreaming of what we knew you were growing into...and so, so proud of you! But now you are able to watch over Uncle Lenny and me. Though we want you back with us, we know you are a special angel now to guard & watch over us all.
Love you and miss you every second of every minute of every day...
Your Alaine & Uncle Lenny
Oh, and Uncle Lenny want so to know what he's supposed to do with your Mustang?
Alaine Draus (Great Aunt)
February 20th, 2009
On May 24, 1990 my life changed forever when you and Bri were born. I fell so in love with you both that there was never any turning back!

Thru the years you have brought us so much joy. Your beautiful smile, wonderful spirit, always light up a room. All of the times we had in PA will always be treasured. Then we made the difficult decision to move to Florida, but showing you, Bri, and Gram where our new life was going, you naturally loved it all! Always wanting to come down… the wonderful memories we made here in Florida, will have to carry us thru until we meet again.

You were my treasure and always kept our bond strong! I’m so glad I was able to talk to you that last night. I will hear your cheerful, laughing voice forever! How excited you were to become an Aunt and Godmother…you couldn’t wait to buy the baby clothes! Though our new addition will now have to hear all about you, our new baby will come to know you as if you were still here!

Our heart so aches for you, our precious girl, but Uncle Lenny and I know that when it is our turn to leave this earthly life, you, Kyle, Gramma Great, Pop Great, and Mandy will be standing next to our Heavenly Father, waiting to welcome us with welcome arms.

None of us will ever be the same without you; but we are all better because of you!

We love you MOST sweetheart!
Your Alaine & Uncle Lenny
Elaine Draus (Great Aunt)
February 20th, 2009
Princess, mommy has so many memories and stories with you but for some reason right now I can't seem to find the right word to write. I hope in time it gets easier. We have 18 years of memories, but our time together was too short. I hurt baby...I want to believe you are in a better place but all i want is you back here with me.
Michelle Engle (Mommy)
February 20th, 2009
Courtney. I miss you so0 much & love you tonz. i will never forget all the good times that me and you had 2gether going to the school after we graduated and gettin called to the office cuz we were supposet to be there. im gonna miss coming to see you and kyle. you were such a good friend and i couldnt thank you enough 4 always being there. but i know that your up with kyle and your watching down on all of us. i just want you to know that i love and miss you soo much && i will never forget you. yo will be in my heart 4 ever!
Samantha Arnold (Friend)
February 20th, 2009
Courtney i love and miss you so much we been through so much stuff good and bad.. ill never ever ever forget you it's not the same w/o you... it hurts so much... but your in a better place w/ kyle looking down on us... ill cherish all our memeories and wat we had.... you were a good friend i bet hub is lost just like me... ilu Courtney Leigh Engle....
much love always
Sydnei...
Sydnei Simon (Bestie)
February 20th, 2009
I love you and I miss you so much. I love the picture of the 4 of us @ your moms birthday party... It brought back so many cute memories of us that night like me sneaking you and Bri shots lol. I Love you so much!
Amy strobel (cousin)
February 20th, 2009
I miss you so much it hurts...I miss your smile, your voice and your silly attitude. Life won't be the same without you, princess! I'll luv you forever!
Mommy Engle (Mother)
February 19th, 2009
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"You might be gone from us but you will forever be engraved into our hearts and never far from our thoughts..♡"
Tanya Bralczyk
March 16th, 2012
"Missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. It's about that very moment when you find yourself doing something and wishing they were right by your side. Wish you were w me"
Sydnei Simon
February 23rd, 2012
"Happy Birthday Courtney Miss and Love You"
jeanette engle
May 24th, 2011
"Happy 21st Birthday, My Princess...This day will never be same without you here! I love and miss you every moment of every day!"
MIchelle Engle
May 23rd, 2011
"cOURTNEY, NOT A DAY goes by that i don't think or miss you... i have no one no friends come backk... i miss yu so muchhhh please keep shannell save w yu n pauly d up there i love yu babygirl.. you'll never be forgotten"
Sydnei sIMON
May 14th, 2011
"cant believe its already been two years, your missed so muchh</3"
Brittany Engle
February 2nd, 2011
"Courtney you touch so many heart i enjoyed knowing you i rem the times when u played in my yard with my girls>> You will always be in my heart and always remember you !!!"
Anna Anderson
January 30th, 2011
"well court its been 2 years now since you were takin away from us. we think about and miss you everyday. we will never forget you. love and miss you. rest easy kiddo..."
brain engle
January 30th, 2011
"Thinking of you today!!!! miss you and love you so much"
sacey crisswell
January 27th, 2011
"Courtney, i miss you so much..!!!!!!<3"
Sydnei Simon
March 22nd, 2010

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